Goodbyes ..

Starting my blog with the very first post on "Goodbyes" . Ironical much ?

What makes me chose this topic is the reality of the word seeping into my life .

In the 18 years I have lived , never have I experienced an actual goodbye . 

People came , people went . We met and we parted . But never did i feel the sting of the goodbye that other people around me did . It was always a simple task ( yes , it did become a "task" at times )

Those which would have been the vital goodbyes of my life , happened when I was too young to comprehend the deepest meaning of the word . The unimportant ones have come and gone ever since . 

Were they really unimportant ? I would never know . I never felt "loss" after a goodbye . 

School ended , my friendship with my best friends ended , another school ended , people moved . 

I never stayed up and felt sad or cried . The only times i ever teared up was on thinking of the phenomenal moments we spent together , the things we pulled off that no one else could , the good times . 

Now , after years of not experiencing a goodbye , I am moving to a city about 2500 kms away from home . 

This is the time for an actual goodbye . Something that lingers on my mind all the time . 

I'm going someplace where there's no mom , sister, dad , dog . And no going to nani's house and gorging on food , no old friends , no best friends , no enemies (!!!) , no fat lady down the street ... NO HOME .   

But wasn't this THE DREAM ! Independence , Self reliance , Travel , all of that ?  "simply the works" as what I remember calling it a while back when all of this wasn't so real . 

We all need to leave and go and grow , but then why do I have the jitters ?

It is a farewell I am and am not looking forward to . 

Cuz its a bittersweet symphony , this life - The Verve .